Wooooooooooooow! She didn’t even want her birthday present, she feels uncomfortable about me buying her one because she didn’t buy me one in other fucking words…she doesn’t want to meet up. Yeah, I’m so fucking done! This is my fucking cue to leave. I am so fucking stupid! I’m breaking that stupid glass crystal shit!
Sooooooooo, she read my Facebook message but didn’t write back:/ I hope she didn’t get freaked out about wanting to meet up to give her birthday present to her!! Fuck! Or maybe she doesn’t want to meet up! But after that first meet up, I asked if we should do that again and she agreed! I mean, it’s been 2 years since the last time we had met up soooo it should be fine, right?! Fuck!!
Finally I can ask my girl to meet up so that I can give her; her birthday present. I probably have to wait another week since she’s extremely busy with school now! After this meet up, I finally won’t talk to her anymore. She’s got a boyfriend anyways, she won’t ever give a fuck about me and she just won’t ever care for me that way I want and it’s time to take care of myself again. I have to leave if people can’t want me the exact way that I want them because it’s effecting me on an emotional level. Obviously I don’t blame her for anything, I GET IT, she can’t help it that she doesn’t feel the same way and I can’t help it if I feel for her, either. But since I’m attached, I need to stop talking to her.